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On the Death of a Favourite Cat, Drowned in a Tub of Gold Fishes

In Literature on December 31, 2006 at 7:09 pm

Your mission, should you choose to accept it, is to mull over the singnificance of the following poem by Thomas Gray, titled On the Death of a Favourite Cat, Drowned in a Tub of Gold Fishes:

‘Twas on a lofty vase’s side,
Where China’s gayest art had dyed
The azure flowers that blow,
Demurest of the tabby kind,
The pensive Selima, reclined,
Gazed on the lake below.

Her conscious tail her joy declared;
The fair round face, the snowy beard,
The velvet of her paws,
Her coat, that with the tortoise vies,
Her ears of jet, and emerald eyes,
She saw; and purred applause.

Still had she gazed; but ‘midst the tide
Two angel forms were seen to glide,
The genii of the stream:
Their scaly armour’s Tyrian hue
Through richest purple to the view
Betrayed a golden gleam.

The hapless nymph with wonder saw:
A whisker first, and then a claw,
With many an ardent wish,
She stretched, in vain, to reach the prize.
What female heart can gold despise?
What cat’s averse to fish?

Presumptuous maid! with looks intent
Again she stretched, again she bent,
Nor knew the gulf between:
(Malignant Fate sat by, and smiled)
The slippery verge her feet beguiled,
She tumbled headlong in.

Eight times emerging from the flood
She mewed to ev’ry wat’ry god
Some speedy aid to send.
No dolphin came, no nereid stirred;
Nor cruel Tom, nor Susan heard.
A fav’rite has no friend!

From hence, ye beauties undeceived,
Know, one false step is ne’er retrieved,
And be with caution bold.
Not all that tempts your wand’ring eyes
And heedless hearts is lawful prize;
Nor all that glisters, gold.

A Memory of Things Unsaid

In Personal on December 28, 2006 at 11:24 pm

Normally, my parents do not let any of us children out of the house when it starts snowing. Realizing how little it usually snows, the anti-car decision might sound a bit too serious. However, a look at the humble situation of Jordanian roads, which get flooded almost immediately after rain starts falling, and at the mentality of some drivers, the decision can be seen in a different light.

I had to leave the house yesterday morning at around 11 to do something very important. It was snowing and I got to flex my new uber-chic transparent umbrella for the first time against the elements. I discovered that it is challenging to walk with a taller person under the same umbrella if I was holding the umbrella. Hmmm.

Then, after lunch, I went to the office for the last time. My managers and colleagues were throwing me a farewell party at 5:30, and I thought it was very kind of them to propose the idea. Before the party started, at around 3:30, I decided to go out to finalize some paper work and to get lunch.

It’s splendid going out in the snow. I did that for the first time in my life yesterday, thank you parents. I bought me a nice meal, cruised around in Jabal Amman looking for a place to park, and then I found a quiet street with an amazing view of Amman. The radio was on (Ahleen FM – much love) and I was in my mobile sauna, also known as Havana Brown (the car), eating and watching white descending from the heavens.

The setting stirred various emotions in me. I missed someone who played with snow shortly before she passed away, I devoured my meal with what resembled savage passion, and I felt like a child because I was so very happy to be out in the snow away from the reach of parental supervision. One would imagine I am already out of the cocoon, but I sometimes surprise myself with how childlike I get.

The party was absolutely delightful. I got introduced to people who work in different divisions in mother corporate, and I got to say goodbye to them in the same encounter as well. It was highly paradoxical, deeply entertaining, and miserable in some measure.

Farewell party, new beginnings, Havana Brown, and snow. It is that time of the year again…

À la recherche du temps perdu (part deux)

In Bits & pieces on December 25, 2006 at 5:05 pm

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Alla ricerca del tempo perduto…

La passione è immutabile.

dust thou art

In Picturesque on December 25, 2006 at 4:59 pm

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dust thou art, originally uploaded by t-squared.

Wishing on time…

Flickr is a Sin

In Picturesque on December 25, 2006 at 4:49 pm

Looking for a visual on passion, I landed in the flickr den of a highly artistic person. Click to your heart’s content:

dust thou art on Flickr – Photo Sharing!

À la recherche du temps perdu (part deux) on Flickr – Photo Sharing!



Fatigue, Pride, and Passion

In Life on December 25, 2006 at 3:21 pm

At times you find it easier to push things back in your head instead of dealing with them. Some problems and some memories have you so engaged in them that you cannot break loose. It is at this point that you shove them back, bury them deep, and look the other way hoping they will be shushed.

I think it is the fear of mental and emotional fatigue that stops you from dealing with these issues. The more you think about these problems and memories, the more strain the process generates, and the less enthusiastic you get about the encounter.

It is also a matter of pride. Your pride prevents you from acknowledging your mistakes in certain situations, and it is this same pride that stands in the way of your facing your problems. It is because you are too proud that you prefer to ignore them, instead of handling them.

Passion, the last of the desirable vices, is also a potent actor in your play of ignorance. Passion might be what triggered your actions in the past, leaving those problems and memories still demanding closure. Passion is the alpha and omega of life itself.

A Message to Hashem 1

In Life on December 24, 2006 at 3:15 pm

Not that I am precisely a guru in telecommunications, but I heard that the satellite responsible for the slow internet connection I am suffering from is called Hashem 1. So in the true spirit of post-modern civility, I am writing Hashem 1 a small note:

Please, get well soon. I cannot work, I cannot send e-mails, I cannot talk to friends and foes, and I cannot finish downloading the new anime I want so bad – because you are ill. We the people beg you to get well soon.

Random Thoughts

In Personal on December 23, 2006 at 9:51 pm

Originally, this post was a list.

A good fellow alerted me to what seems to be a coincidence or a phenomenon, call it what you want, and I decided to change the format of this post.

I do not wish to write things personal, but in the light of my current oscillating mood, I will jot down some thoughts for my future reference.

I hate ends and endings and I do not like the approach of a new year. As far as I am concerned, there is nothing jolly about a new year. As far as I am concerned, it will take me at least five months to fully understand that a new year has begun.

My cat is in early heat. He is loud and smelly and I made the mistake of not fixing him. It is December, is he watching kitty-porn?

It has been a long, long time since I last danced. Now somehow I remember the 2005 new year’s party. Ah, good times, bad times. Just itched in my memory. Who cares, yeah?

Some 2006 people were awesome. Most were just not that awesome. Rejects! – return to HELL whence you came! I sometimes wonder how can some people live with the knowledge that they are who they are. It makes me sick really.

Most Arab singers cannot sing. I am one of them. I made the mistake of sending an old George Wassouf number in my voice to a friend overseas. This friend advised me to keep my day job. I am still hurt.

I am a junk food junkie. My mother hates this, among other things, in me. Her only solace is that I have not, to her knowledge, done anything crazy this year. I find the latter notion amusing.

The world is an unhealthy place to be. For that purpose, I prefer to live in planet Google Earth. Minus the trouble. I will launch Google Tololy one day.

Why is it so difficult to find the perfect white shirt in Amman? I am on a mission impossible, a quest, a hunt… for the perfect white shirt. I would like one that fits. I am not two people, why do they make them so gigantic?

Wars are all around. This makes me sad. It does not help in restoring my lost faith in the human race. I believe in extraterrestrial life and now I have more reason to do so. The perfect man is not even a man, it’s an alien.

Stop reading this post. It is personal. You must unlearn what you have learned – Yoda.

Quartetto di Cremona in Amman: Breathtaking Performance

In Italiano, Picturesque on December 20, 2006 at 6:35 pm

The Italian Embassy in Amman organized two concerts for the Quartetto di Cremona, an Italian group of four founded in the year 2000 and composed of Cristiano Gualco (violin), Paolo Andreoli (violin), Simone Gramaglia (viola), and Giovanni Scaglione (cello). The first concert was on the 18th in Zara Expo while the second was held on the 19th in Mount Nebo.

While I only managed to be present at the first concert, on the 18th, I am positive that the setting at Mount Nebo was spectacular as well. The music performed by the Quartetto di Cremona on the 18th included pieces by Mozart, Verdi, Vacchi, Boccherini and Puccini. Now you may enjoy listening to classical music off records or CDs, but being in the presence of this intense of an emotional and artistic state is truly unmatched.

The performance of the Quartetto di Cremona left nobody in doubt of the group’s exquisite talent. I have personally been brought to tears and then elevated to a surreal realm of pleasure during the concert, and I enjoyed every second beyond description. I cannot but thank the Italian Embassy for organizing the two concerts and for inviting me, and I thank the Quartetto di Cremona for sharing their talent and their spell-binding music with a Jordanian audience.

I truly hope that the Italian Embassy would bring more Italian musicians to town, and I hope more and more functions are organized to promote the Italian language and culture. However, I am not entirely sure of the type of audience in the first concert. The people present seemed to be embassy officials, but one can never be too sure of that, now can one?

During the concert, I met an old friend of mine whose name you ought to remember quite well. Ilyas Dorzi is a gifted pianist and composer that will soon organize a concert of his own. I will be announcing the concert once the date is official, but this is one person that will have people fighting over his autograph in no time, watch out, Amman!

Now feast your eyes on images taken from the concerto on the 18th:

Concerto

Quartetto di Cremona 1

Quartetto di Cremona 2

Quartetto di Cremona 3

Quartetto di Cremona 4

Calendar Time

In Literature on December 11, 2006 at 2:23 pm

It is that time of the year again – when calendars are sold at traffic lights in Amman. Two days ago I refused to buy a calendar from a man so intent on selling me one that I prepared two to three excuses to voice my rejection.

This December sun is a trick I tell you. This pleasant weather, moderately chilly around the evening and cool during the night, is a farce. The special bit about the trick is that we surrender to it and cannot protest because the Performer is not only masked, but also cunning. This leaves me quite unimpressed with us, human creatures.

The man at the traffic light did not seem to want to listen to me. I daresay he did not hear a word I said. He kept insisting that I buy one of his calendars and did not afford me enough room to explain why I do not buy calendars. I wanted to tell him, and in turn force myself to understand, that I do not understand the passage of time. I do not understand time, at all.

When I was still a little girl at school, there was this lesson where they taught us how to express time and the hours in English. It was all very British – quarter to two, half past eleven, five to ten. I could not grasp the concept no matter how diligent at studying it I was. Just say “to” if it’s before a certain hour, and “past” is it’s after it – my mother would tell me. It is possible that the operation was complicated because it was simplified so – time is not to’s and past’s.

In the exam about this lesson, the teacher tricked us by drawing digital clocks instead of the old-fashioned round-and-clear ones. That made me miss out on time even more.

The man at the traffic light started knocking on my window and pointing to the bulk of calendars he had with him, imploring me to purchase one. I thanked him time and again and motioned to him to go try his merchandise at another buyer’s window. The only use I have of the calendar hanging by the living room is reading the poetry lines printed on each day.

When you rip the pages off the calendar, you acknowledge the passage of your life. Each page is a day that you physically remove from your time on earth. The calendar printers take mercy on you, miserable person, and aid you to do it with style — they cleverly add a line of poetry to each day.

In my denial, I do not take pages out of the calendar by the living room. I find them later on lying about on some table somewhere and read their poetry, thinking that I had out-smarted almighty time. Secretly, I know this little game I play does not, cannot, see my triumph. I play it because I know of no other game that cheats both the digital clock and my naïveté.

Celebrate the approach of the new year thinking of your proximity to the end of all your years, miserable person.

He started to walk away, the man at the traffic light, finally submitting to my rejection. I bore my heart heavier with every step he took strolling to other potential customers. I realized that our calendar by the living room will be changed for a much younger one very soon and I envisioned the year, now dwindling into nothingness, thrown in the trash bin- what a sad reminder of the way we are compelled to discard our days.

A Passage to Some Place

In Literature on December 9, 2006 at 11:46 am

I am slowly progressing in Forster’s A Passage to India, a book that I had bought some two years ago but never got the chance to explore properly. For one reason or the other, it always seemed to climb down on my reading list instead of climbing up.

Now at page 15, I think I understand why I prefer to read classical Greek dramas and epics instead of, well, anything a little younger. I enjoy the supernatural events, the Gods and Goddesses, the numerous intertwined plots and families, and the grandeur of mythology. I also appreciate the language (of the translations, naturally) immensely and there doesn’t pass a page without infusing me with linguistic inspiration.

Can a modern writer pull such fantasy off in the now and be considered anything but a hopeless sci-fi wannabe writer? Better yet, can a modern writer devise similar compelling plots and not borrow any from Aeschylus, Sophocles, or Euripides? Do these stories engage the reader so, that he cannot escape them to creativity?

Dionysus

This sort of argument is really inseparable from the knowledge that, fiction or fact, these Greek stories made part of a people’s religion. Separate from their religious setting, there is neither cause nor purpose for these stories. Drama was born during festivals celebrating Dionysus, and they were born to do exactly that – celebrate the God of wine. To want to imitate these masterpieces merely for their dramatic or stylistic or even linguistic value would, in my opinion, be a feeble attempt at matching something quite unmatched – something that traveled beyond the common nature of literature to the heights of belief.

E Ti Vengo a Cercare

In Italiano on December 6, 2006 at 2:22 pm

Una canzone da Franco Battiato che mi sempre arresta le emozioni; una canzone che stavo ascoltando oggi sulla strada per l’ufficio; una canzone che dedico a qualcuno che non la capisce; E ti vengo a cercare

E ti vengo a cercare
anche solo per vederti o parlare
perché ho bisogno della tua presenza
per capire meglio la mia essenza.
Questo sentimento popolare
nasce da meccaniche divine
un rapimento mistico e sensuale
mi imprigiona a te.
Dovrei cambiare l’oggetto dei miei desideri
non accontentarmi di piccole gioie quotidiane
fare come un eremita
che rinuncia a sé.
E ti vengo a cercare
con la scusa di doverti parlare
perché mi piace ciò che pensi e che dici
perché in te vedo le mie radici.
Questo secolo oramai alla fine
saturo di parassiti senza dignità
mi spinge solo ad essere migliore
con più volontà.
Emanciparmi dall’incubo delle passioni
cercare l’Uno al di sopra del Bene e del Male
essere un’immagine divina
di questa realtà.
E ti vengo a cercare
perché sto bene con te
perché ho bisogno della tua presenza.

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Adiga Music – Sample II

In Love on December 6, 2006 at 1:51 am

It’s back by popular demand. I am uploading a second Adiga music sample (find the first Adiga music sample here)

This piece is by Omar Bazoqa.Enjoy it everyone.

Reviewing Casino Royale

In Love on December 5, 2006 at 12:39 am

Casino Royale sheds a little light on the beginnings of legendary British agent and notorious heartbreaker James Bond. The movie touches on Bond’s promotion to his 00 “double O” status and his rather bumpy-yet-interesting relationship with M. It is also most revealing of the background of 007’s emotional life.

In the series of movies covering Bond’s career, spectators are used to his introducing himself with the famous line; “Bond, James Bond.” In Casino Royale, however, spectators do not see 007 using the line until the end of the movie – when 007 has fully matured into the larger-than-life figure that they are used to in other movies telling of subsequent periods of his career.

The usage of this famous line was not the only aspect that was slightly modified in Casino Royale. In a certain scene, Bond shocks fans by declaring that he does not care if his Martini is shaken or stirred. In another scene, Bond confesses his love to Vesper Lynd – a female character introduced, doubtlessly, to explore the tender side of the naughty licensed killer. Interestingly, Vesper Lynd saves Bond’s life three times in Casino Royale, and that just might be a record number. On top of all that, one cannot help but notice that the song in the introduction of the movie did not feature any female figurines – quite unusual for a story on a charmer.

Personally, I thought the movie was great. This is a thrilling movie that I would watch over and over again. I enjoyed every second of it in varying degrees and I thought it was a spectacular treatment of the emotional and professional growth of Bond. I found that the movie gradually took me from Bond’s early rash days to his wiser, more mature ones with convincing eloquence and comfortable sequence. I did not find much to be “out of place” but I would have preferred it if the villain, Le Chiffre, was more wicked.

The one scene I found unconvincing was when Bond cracked a joke while bound to a bottomless torture chair. “Everyone’s going to know that you died while scratching my bottom” – I believe that’s what he said. I hated the laughter that followed, both from the spectators and from Bond himself, and that is one thing I would take out of the movie if I could.

On Daniel Craig’s performance, I thought it was satisfactory. I found he did an excellent job, both with his physique and his acting, and I salute the choice that placed him as Bond (Although I still feel sore about Eric Bana’s not making the cut). That aside, I failed to catch a glimpse of the Austin Martin’s gear.

For the serious, here’s an interesting bit of a review/article on a book titled The Man Who Saved
Britain
by Simon Winder. Article by Michiko Kakutani, titled The Empire’s Sun Has Set, but James Bond Is Forever. Good things come from Yoda:

While Britain was coping in the 1950s and 60s with unemployment,
inflation, strikes and demoralization, and making the humbling
transition from empire to welfare state, “a solitary Englishman” — who
embodied the old-fashioned belief that a single individual could save
the day through sheer guts and expertise — was almost single-handedly
maintaining “the country’s reputation.”

While “the magic, the romance and the often squalid reality of
dominion over the world which had animated millions of emigrants,
sailors, soldiers, traders, journalists for so many generations came
to an absolute, unrecoverable, bewildering end,” Mr. Winder writes,
somewhere on the globe, in a luxury hotel, one man was secretly
“slipping a .25 Beretta automatic into his chamois-leather shoulder
holster, examining his rather cruel mouth in the bathroom mirror,
putting on his dinner jacket and going out into the night to save
their world.”

In real life James Bond would be in his 80s now, but he is one of
those literary characters like Peter Pan who never age and never
change. Just as the books and movies follow a familiar formula, so
Bond himself, as Mr. Winder writes, is at his most reassuring when
“like a hamster with his wheel, he performs the same narrow set of
functions over and over — the scenario, the seduction, the foiling of
the plot, the killing of the villains.”

For Mr. Winder, Bond, like the queen, remains a curious “fossil
remnant” of an imperial attitude that has long since vanished from the
rest of Britain.

“The queen must presumably spend some part of the day,” he writes,
“moping about how her dad had been king-emperor, had the allegiance of
a quarter of the planet and had been treated in some quarters as a
god, whereas she has to wander around the streets expressing interest
in the lives of ladies holding plastic flags with ice cream dripping
down their fronts. Bond shows no such introspection or reskilling. It
is a very odd aspect of contemporary Britain that a country which is
almost unrecognizable from the one which nurtured Fleming (aside, of
course, from the occasional survival, such as a seemingly unstoppable
urge to despoil Iraq) should still, for so much of the world, remain
the country of James Bond.”

Uma Did Well

In Life on December 2, 2006 at 1:49 am

Upon recommendation from the cinematically-informed readers of The Box, I watched the two volumes of Kill Bill this weekend. The movies were a pleasure to watch and somewhat true to life. I thought they were a real girl-power story and, of course, the dismembering and bleeding were fit.

Watching Kill Bill, I felt a most special urge to return to martial arts. I found the most pleasure in watching the Kung Fu movements of Uma Thurman during the movies and I honestly missed the old days. Other than that, I didn’t find the blood-spray trend very convincing and, while I liked the deepish dialogue, I still didn’t find that convincing either. Pulp Fiction talked to me better.

I had previously criticized action movies that feature females in leading roles because they were not rough enough and constantly strove to preserve the “pretty” image of those characters. I protested because I see it suitable that when a person gets hit, the person gets hurt, and that means pain and blood. In Kill Bill, Uma and other female actresses were stripped out of this limited view of female action figures and were portrayed as – surprise surprise! – real human beings (in a cinematic fashion, naturally).

The girl vs. girl scenes did not go away, however. There was jealousy, there was a sadistic air to female characters’ behaviour throughout the movies, and there was some floating in the air done. At this point, I am not necessarily stating that Kill Bill is similar to Charlie’s Angels, but merely drawing on the predominant themes in movies featuring female action figures.

I am not entirely sure what I expect a perfect movie to be and how precisely it would have to be for me to accept it as true to life. Maybe I’m just a difficult opinion to win over, or maybe I am too hooked up on documentaries. In any case, I wanted to thank the readers who recommended Kill Bill because vol. I and II entertained me thoroughly this weekend.