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Red Vision

In Explorator on June 28, 2007 at 8:58 pm

I have been wanting a navel piercing for ages now — pretty much ever since I developed a passion for body art. I did intensive research on the subject over the years and I decided that Amman was not the place to do it.

There are no professional body piercing studios in Amman, and I have met girls who went and got pierced in accessory shops on the hands of unlicensed and inexperienced people who used piercing guns on them and later stretched the navel hole with gradual increase of jewellery gauge. They also recommend alcohol to clean the wounds!

I mean the amount of pain and suffering! The health risks — infections and scars and horrible complications! That is just so not right.

So I decided that if I will do this, I will do it the right way. I went today and got my belly button pierced at Big Joe & Sons studio. I admit I was really nervous and kept wondering if I will get a scar eventually and so on, but the artist there (Brian DeMaio) was ultra friendly and he said it wouldn’t hurt any more than my nose ring or 14 earrings. I asked him a couple of questions that I had and he answered professionally so I knew I was in good hands.

It hurt, but not as much as I expected, which was a good thing of course. I was so happy when I looked at it in the mirror in the studio! It is a dream come true to some extent because now I won’t be getting any more piercings. Probably not a tattoo either, I do not want my parents to disown me.

I will write about this in more detail later on under Body Art, the category. I am just super excited now and I so love my new body jewellery — it’s a vision.

P.S: If I don’t post anything in two or three days, know that I am dead and throw me a nice cyber funeral. There is a very good chance my mother will kill me.

Too Much Temptation

In Explorator on June 27, 2007 at 4:02 pm

I’m grouping the posts I will write during my stay in New York under this category: Explorator. Some of them will be multi-category posts, which means they belong to more than one category. In this case, I will list them initially under Explorator and when they are off the main page I will go back to edit them and list them under the other categories they belong to. I will do that because usually the small box under any multi-category post does not fit more than one category title. I don’t like things to be off like that, so I will trick the system when nobody is watching.

That off my chest, I can proceed now to the story of this post.

There are three tattoo studios in the area where I live, and they are all within a five minute walking distance from my current location on this couch. I eye them from the car every time I pass by them and make mental notes to google them when I get home. I google them, they’re good places with good reviews, and I make mental notes to decide on an ink design. I decide on a design, and wonder if I will tolerate it 20 years down the road. I decide I will because it is smart and I even imagine myself telling my grandchildren the story behind it, quite possibly the story in this post.

There is no way around it. If I am surrounded by body art studios, I will have to succumb to the temptation of ink and needles. I have been trying to resist for the past week, but secretly at night I look up designs and imagine them on my skin. I am ill.

NY: Take 2

In Explorator on June 25, 2007 at 6:09 pm

Last night was one of the most memorable times of my entire life. I went to Manhattan in the evening and walked Times Square and Broadway and 5th Avenue… The whole place was so surreal and buzzing with life and energy and diversity. I could not believe I was actually there. You know how sometimes you feel like you have stepped outside of yourself and watched things happen around you? That is exactly how I felt last night.

I really, really, really heart NY! I want to stay here…

New York

Bumper Sticker Fanatics

In Explorator on June 24, 2007 at 11:31 pm

This is very similar to the Salli 3al Nabi bumper stickers we see everywhere in Jordan. It’s all religious material and somewhat the same abstract God.

Can bumper stickers bring us together?

NY: Take 1

In Explorator on June 23, 2007 at 10:40 pm

So far, I love it here. The neighborhood where I am staying is beautiful and the house I am living in is gorgeous. The weather has been pleasant over the past three days, the duration of my stay so far. I’m generally feeling happy, awkward, bemused, or sleepy at any given time of the day.

I went out walking yesterday and I loved it. I was trying to see if I could get to a certain shop I had eyed from the car when I first got “home.” But of course I had to act smart and try to find a shortcut and I ended up walking 30 minutes in the wrong direction. You can trust I would do something like that, right? Well I didn’t feel bad at all, actually I enjoyed the walk tremendously. I love walking alone but I never get to do that in our neighborhood in Amman — it’s just not walking material.

So you can say that I found out that not all roads lead to Rome (or home).

I went to the Bronx today. It was so interesting to observe the racial texture of the people there. So many people spoke in what sounded like Spanish to my inexperienced ears, and there was a majority of African-Americans. I also saw a number of veiled African-American women, and a couple of veiled women who seemed Arab.

At least Arabs and Muslims here say Assalamu Alaikom when they see other Arabs or Muslims. Back in Michigan in 2005 seldom did they interact or even smile to me, it was so strange and offensive really. But anyway, the people in the Bronx looked very exotic. Many had tattoos and piercings, and most were overweight. The place was heavy, the people didn’t smile, and I got sad vibes all over. Oh and many drivers, male and female, had really loud music blasting through the air from their cars. It was strange, I had never seen anything like that in Royal Oak. Honestly, I was relieved when I left the area, but I’m going back some time. Later.

My next step is to memorize the walking route to the station so I can really milk my time here. I will keep you posted on that, but for now you can check out some select shots I took of my surroundings:

New York

Note

In Bits & pieces on June 21, 2007 at 6:44 pm

Note to everyone:

If you know my real name, don’t go around telling it to everyone. If I saw a friend in you and told you my real name, I did it because I trusted you would NOT share it with your mother, father, sisters, brothers, friends, strangers, and other bloggers. If you shared it, you betrayed my trust.

I don’t think it takes a person of supernatural intelligence to recognize that I could have revealed my real name here if I wanted to. I didn’t, and you shouldn’t blurt it out to just anyone who asks. I don’t want my name to be public yet, so respect that.

Thank you.

NY, Here Comes Tololy!

In Life on June 19, 2007 at 9:22 am

I will finally get to visit New York! I have always wanted to go there and lose myself in the vibrant city. Now I can actually do that which is seriously great! I leave tomorrow morning and the plan is for me to spend the summer alla nordamericana.

After the Miserable Month of May, where I had so much to do and yet was chronically inspired and frequently tempted, not to mention shocked, I have earned a break away from everything and (almost) everyone.

May ended with straight A’s and a perfect accumulative GPA, true nerd-style. And since I am an American Studies major halfway towards earning an MA in that, it sort of makes sense to go to the states now to match the bookish intake with reality. I know I probably turned you off by connecting my trip with my schooling but hey, what sort of a nerd would I be if I didn’t do that?

Goodbye Miserable May– Hello the rest of the summer! Patience is indeed virtue. (Although we all know I am still going to eternal fire for some very good reasons, but whatever :)

Note: If you live in New York (or Canada) and want to meet up, email me and we’ll do something.

Party Food Pictures

In Picturesque on June 17, 2007 at 11:31 pm

My super talented sister Dana made 95% of this yummyness, all on her own! I helped her a bit by holding the mixer while she added ingredients to a mixing bowl. I also helped by entertaining her during her seven hour marathon of food making. So yes, my presence in that kitchen was priceless.

In case you’re wondering, my niece turned eight :)

This is what I had:

Check out the rest of the pictures:

Party Food

نظام مخالفات السير الأردني الجديد

In Salon, عربي on June 16, 2007 at 9:04 am

يعتمد نظام مخالفات السير الأردني الجديد على تطبيقات تكنولوجية تسهل من عمل الشرطة و من الرقابة على المواطنين فهو مبني على استخدام الكاميرات المثبتة على الطرقات و الكاميرات المثبتة في السيارات التابعة لأمانة عمان الكبرى و على الأشخاص المدنيين. بالتالي, من الطبيعي أن تتم مخالفتك عزيزي القارئ دون أن تدري و ليست هنا المشكلة. المشكلة تكمن في أنك لن تعرف أنه قد تم مخالفتك إلا عندما تذهب لترخيص سيارتك و عندما يحين ذلك الوقت تكون المخالفة قد تضاعفت قيمتها لتأخرك في سدادها!

أنا على سبيل المثال اكتشفت أنه قد تمت مخالفتي في شهر شباط الماضي و لكنني اكتشفت ذلك في شهر نيسان عبر موقع أمانة عمان الكبرى و أنا أتفقد الموقع دائماً و من المفروض أن المخالفات تدرج بعد ثلاثة أيام من تحريرها و لكن في هذه الحالة تأخرت مخالفتي في الظهور ثلاثة أشهر. السؤال هو كيف أتأكد من أنني بالفعل قمت بمخالفة قواعد السير في ذلك التاريخ و أنا لا أذكر أين كنت في ذلك اليوم أصلاً و ذلك بالنظر لتأخر إدراج المخالفة؟ مع الأخذ بعين الاعتبار درجة ثقتي بحرفية و دقة الأنظمة عندنا …

إذا كنت أنا أستطيع الوصول لموقع أمانة عمان و تفقد المخالفات, فإن معظم الأردنيين لا يستطيعون ذلك و هذا يحول نظام مخافات السير إلى نظام غير عادل و غير فعال إلا في جبي النقود لرفد الميزانية. علماً بأنك إن لم تسدد قيمة المخالفة فإنها ستتضاعف و هذا بالضبط ما حصل مع مخالفتي و أنا أتحمل مسؤولية ذلك إلا أنني لا أستطيع التغاضي عن تأخر موقع أمانة عمان الكبرى بإدراج المخالفة في الأساس! برأيي يجب على القائمين على هذا النظام توفير سبل معقولة للمواطنين كي يعرفوا قيم و تواريخ و ماهية مخالفاتهم قبل أن تتم مضاعفتها بل يجب أن يتم إعلام المواطن بذلك دون أن يضطر إلى المعاناة في سبيل التوصل إلى المعلومة, طبعاً إلا إذا كان الهدف من النظام أن لا يعرف المواطن عن المخالفات حتى تتم مضاعفتها!

ما رأيك بنظام مخالفات السير الأردني الجديد؟

This Is Why I Am Going To Hell

In Bits & pieces on June 15, 2007 at 1:16 pm

Remember when I was banished to the 7th level of hell? I did another quiz this morning to find out my most glaring sins, and here they are, bless my heart:

Greed: Medium
 
Gluttony: Medium
 
Wrath: Medium
 
Sloth: Very High
 
Envy: Medium
 
Lust: High
 
Pride: High
 

Discover Your Sins – Click Here

I’m just wondering if it’s normal that I don’t have any sins at a “low” level. They’re all medium to very high, basically. I must be really corrupt then, yeah? Hmm… strange, but it doesn’t feel as negative as one thinks it would. Suppose being sinful is actually what gets you into heaven, that would be the ultimate cosmic joke.

What are your sins? Share them and be blessed!

Out Flickr, In Picasa?

In Picturesque on June 13, 2007 at 3:03 pm

I tried upgrading to a Flickr pro account the other day, but the site kept rejecting my card. I’ve used this card to shop online for lots of things and never had any problems with it, ever! I emailed support a week ago and still have not received a response, which is what I call poor customer service. So I am punishing Flickr by depriving them from the unmatched visual arts of my camera. Take that, you lowly credit card eaters!

I’m giving Picasa a shot for now…

The application is surprisingly smooth. Using it makes me feel like I’m in the Matrix or something because it has neat “gliding” effects, and I can upload things directly from my computer and do some supernice things with them. Also, I don’t think Picasa limits the number of albums I can have as a free account holder, which is really sweet. So far, I am in love with Picasa and I wonder why I never checked it out previously. I guess I was blinded by Flickr Power…but now I can see.

The only glitch I have faced until now is that I can’t view my photos when I upload them, not instantly at least. I am not sure why that is but yesterday I was testing Picasa with a friend who saw my pictures no problems, but I only got empty boxes. Today, I can see them alright. This is not a big deal to me but I hope Picasa people do something about it. That way I might even buy extra storage with them, sayonara Flickr!

Collage

To check out my first album on Picasa:

Ants & Stuff

Hilarious Japanese Interview with Johnny Depp

In V for Video on June 12, 2007 at 3:40 pm

The Box Is Saved!

In Metablog on June 12, 2007 at 11:27 am

Hallelujah!

I love that I can ask for help and get it, and I love that you care about Tololy’s Box. I can safely announce that TB loads faster now. It’s alive…

In the past (yesterday), I used a stopwatch to monitor loading time. Then a nice person suggested I use Pingdom… It feels good to step into the Light.

Here are the stats:

Website information

Total loading time:
1.9 seconds
Total size:
499.4 KB
Total objects:
40
External objects:
5
HTML (X)HTML:
2 (38.3KB)
RSS RSS/XML:
0
CSS CSS:
2 (5.3KB)
Scripts Scripts:
3 (30.5KB)
Images Images:
33 (425.2KB)
Plugins Plugins:
0
Other Other:
0
Redirected Redirected:
0

I still need to do a couple of things to reduce the loading time, but it’s all good because I learned a lot since yesterday. I would like to thank Sk8erboi, Firas, and Ash for their doctor-like awesome help. I really appreciate that and thou shall get cookies.

And of course everyone else who was concerned about the health of the Box gets a virtual cookie…

cookie

The Box Is Slow, Fix It?

In Metablog on June 11, 2007 at 5:36 pm

Hello! This is Tololy from, you know, Tololy’s Box. I’ve been receiving complaints lately from you dear readers that this blog is heavy and slow. You don’t like that, I don’t like that. The glitch here is that I lack the technomagic to fix it.

Upon the advice of a buddy, I removed that banner from the sidebar (nobody signed up for SiteGround through here, therefore I did not get the bonus 3 months of free hosting, thank you very much) and I reduced the number of posts that appear on the main page. That cut down on the loading time of the Box, but not enough.

So…

Dear Gods of technomagic and everything wonderful and IT-like, do you have any suggestions on how to make this place load faster? Help, advice, suggestions, and volunteer work are all welcome. If you have a good idea or want to flex your cyborg muscles, then you’re my man/woman!

P.S: Will reward with cookies.

9 Crimes

In Bits & pieces on June 10, 2007 at 10:35 am

This song is my ultimate favorite these days. I found it while watching a pole dance video on YouTube. Now I just keep playing it over and over again, and for some reason it makes me want to cry. So few songs move me this way… Beautiful, original, touching.

9 Crimes

Leave me out with the waste
This is not what I do
It’s the wrong kind of place
To be thinking of you
It’s the wrong time
For somebody new
It’s a small crime
And I’ve got no excuse

Is that alright?
Give my gun away when it’s loaded
Is that alright?
If u don’t shoot it how am I supposed to hold it
Is that alright?
Give my gun away when it’s loaded
Is that alright
With you?

Read the rest of 9 Crimes Lyrics here.

Because I love this song so much, I’m making it available here in the Box. You can listen to/download Damien Rice & Lisa Hannigan singing 9 Crimes by clicking on this link. This is an amazing, amazing song and I really hope you would enjoy it as much as I do.

Here’s the video of 9 Crimes; it’s on YouTube but it cannot be embedded. Do watch it — it’s surreal in a really creative/strange fashion. I’m fairly certain you will be impressed.

Here’s another video of Rice and Hannigan performing 9 Crimes live on stage:

Good music is another name for magic.

À la garson

In Personal on June 9, 2007 at 8:30 pm

When I was a little girl, up to eight years old, my mother had total control over my hair. She chose my haircut and styled my hair to perfection every morning. Because she had two other girls to prep in the morning, hair-wise, she always chose to keep my hair very short to save time and effort. That is why I always appear in old pictures with my hair à la garson. In other words, with boy hair.

Garson

So to retaliate, I grew my hair when I gained control over it. It got long and feminine and traditional. Very pretty stuff — but terribly impractical and boring for a person who wears the veil and has virtually no audience or competition. It got to a crazy length because I had a goal of getting it to that crazy length. Then, poof!, why have long hair after that?

I developed a desire –let’s call it that– to want to shave my head. I realized that it would be too drastic if I didn’t consult with family first, or at least hint that they will be living with a bald girl for some weeks. So I “hinted” at it and the responses came positive. Then the thought so consumed my free time that it grew into an obsession. I kept calculating the possible consequences and imagining how I would look like, all the time.

Relax. I didn’t do it (at least then.) I realized that I had two holes in my head (translation:cuts) and that they would probably not look very sexy in the sun with my hair all gone. And then Britney Spears shaved her head at that time and just eternally ruined it for me. If I went ahead and did it then, people will not only think of me as a dysfunctional rebel, but as a Britney fan. I live with the first label but the second is just a no-no.

RIP 1

It seems my mother had it right all along. I have a tiny face and a petite body structure, so growing my hair turns me into a toothpick topped with a wannabee-hairball. That was my conclusion after years of exhausting combs and brushes and sweating at night. I eventually went back to my roots: hair à la (very short) garson. My gallery of earrings showed, at last!, and I looked 16, easy. I still do, yay!
I’ve had the “do” on for a considerable time now (over a year), but every time I go to the hair salon to get my hair cut/trimmed, the women there bombard me with questions and comments. Three months ago, I went and got it cut again at a new place. They called the women from adjacent places to come see the stranger, pleaded/argued with me for fifteen minutes not to “do it,” and they even shot videos of me after the hair was cut. It didn’t help that I had navy blue nail polish on, and the piercings did not help either. I felt like such a freak of nature that day.

RIP 2

Then there’s this strange hesitation to cut that I’ve encountered. I have to literally convince, encourage, and keep on pushing the haircutter to actually cut as much as I want her to. I think it is due to the whole cultural outlook that women should always have long hair and that it’s more feminine and desirable, that holds haircutters back. Of course, you always have the haircutter who develops a personal attachment to your hair and refuses to cut an inch more out of “love.”

Then there’s always the onlookers — women at the salon who have nothing better to do that lecture you (me) on how “your hair is so gorgeous, don’t cut it!!” and how “your hair is the crown of your beauty,” and then ask how my parents let me do this and remark that they must be very open-minded people. These women always have long hair and nail polish that’s chipping off, and they usually smoke and gossip, and I bet they think I’m lesbian.

History of Lesbian Hair

That’s a nice rendering of the Mona Lisa, isn’t it? It perks the old lady up and gives her some mojo, as opposed to that drab previous look of hers. I would have totally converted if I were in her shoes. But I guess it’s ultimately a matter of personal choice, and culture.

Strange Vacuum Behavior

In T Play Box on June 5, 2007 at 10:50 am

I could not think of anything to blog about yesterday. I cannot think of anything today. As a result, this is one post void of valuable/intelligible content. No finding a cure for cancer or a solution for poverty and famine today –sorry folks.

I am demonstrating strange vacuum behavior.

Lance

Sex Bomb

In V for Video on June 3, 2007 at 1:22 pm

Tom Jones’ Sex Bomb and a Russian skating on ice — what a show! Does anyone know that guy’s name?

Wow. I would whistle if I could.

Note: I found his name; Evgeni Plushenko, aka The Bomb.

Blue, Blue Nails

In Picturesque on June 2, 2007 at 9:11 am

There is no point in growing your nails to a degree that makes it annoying to type.

Nails Again

Nails R Us

Deep Impact

Fin.

Nel mezzo del cammin…

In Life on June 1, 2007 at 1:27 pm


Nel mezzo del cammin di nostra vita
mi ritrovai per una selva oscura
ché la diritta via era smarrita.

That’s how Dante opened his Commedia, and those lines speak with such clarity and honesty about the miserable month of May that I have just survived. Dark, lonesome, stressful.

Midway in the journey of our life
I came to myself in a dark wood,
for the straight way was lost.

It’s funny to think back of the days of Letteratura Italiana I. Back then, class ran from 2-3 and it was usually hot during that time of the day. The Italian Studies corner, aula cinquecento, had a single large window that looked on a remarkable view — a wall half naked, half covered with green leaves. I would sit in the front row because that way it was easier to escape once class is over, and on the final desk to the left.

I wasn’t too terribly interested in the volgare and its subsequent climb to power, nor was I the least bit impressed by the politics of Italian cities. The material being in an Italian much advanced beyond my knowledge did not help, and fittingly I discovered that I knew next to nothing about Catholicism and the Middle Ages. This glaring lack of knowledge and the contrasting vast, encyclopaedic knowledge of my professor made me feel profoundly ignorant, a feeling I abhor more than anything else. To add insult to injury, the professor once ridiculed my bracelets, which are sacred to me, and then class turned terminally intolerable.

Then came Dante’s Commedia and changed everything.

Granted it was difficult to understand the volgare, and I don’t think I tried that hard. But the depths of the work explained were too delicious to ignore, and too tempting to resist especially since at that time in my history, dark themes inherent in religion and mythology were very attractive to me. My professed ignorance paired with this enthusiasm turned Letteratura I into a class I anticipated, an experience of knowing, a special time of the day where I can think of Dante’s careful calculations and his images and characters and ponder on meanings underneath the surface, a time where I can stay after class for hours and ask questions and discuss ideas ranging from the determination of Jesus’ birth date to evolution.

La Commedia was the reason for this metamorphosis which paved the way for a more profound and radical change in my character, thought, and principles. My professor, by granting me what time I asked of him after class, and by accepting my opinions and sharing his, opened the door for me to change.

In the Commedia, Dante has Ulisse (Odysseus) tell his men when they propose to return home after venturing to the end of the world, in an attempt to urge them to carry out their adventure to its completion:


Fatti non foste a viver come bruti,
ma per seguir virtute e canoscenza

You have not been created to live like brutes,
But to seek virtues and knowledge.

Ulisse and his men continue the journey and they eventually drown, if you’re curious. Dante had obviously not owned a copy of the Odyssey and his Greek was not that strong, so he simply altered the story (talk about intellectual copy rights.)

Dante’s two lines here summarize why I bothered with surviving the miserable month of May. If the purpose of life is to use what resources we have and to exhaust them by doing so, then I was never more alive than during May. Dante, and my professor, are to thank for that. I have managed to walk out of the dark wood.